so this last year was ass for everyone and i get that, but man oh man the last year was ass lol

it got me thinking about how little i posted, but also how *much* it felt like with everything else i had going on in my life. without getting into too much detail cos idk i feel shy just blasting my woes out of nowhere when i've barely had a presence on this site, it was like pulling myself out of a tar pit to find even a couple hours a week to draw. mostly that was due to my job, which wasn't paying me shit. i quit that job, if you wanted to know, and have a new one that's shaping up to be a WAY better fit for me in terms of my mental well being and my time.

but i also got covid like RIGHT at the start of 2024 (tested positive on the 2nd to be precise) and it's hard to not feel like somehow that's the vibe that's being set up here.

but at the same time i feel WEIRDLY optimistic that it's just the last fuck you from 2023?? i don't often feel like the new year actually changes that much from the old, usually it's just a couple weeks of me having to remember to date stuff correctly. but i just have this feeling that i'll really get a chance to bite back into social media after being largely absent from it for...shit, like 6 years?

i think first things first is i'd like to put myself, like me the person, back out there as well. i used to love getting to chat with followers and make friends and stuff. for a lot of personal reasons i fell off that wagon pretty hard and it's weird to look back before that time and see how shy and honestly jaded with myself i've gotten since then. but i kinda hate that for me so here's to coming out of hermit mode i guess lol

if you've read this far and you don't know me that well (how could you i barely post :y) then hi! this stream of consciousness horseshit is exactly what i'm like in my head about 98% of the time. as i plan on making myself do this more often to ease back into things, please don't tell me it's boring to read or weird!! i will probably cry!!

but also i hope that y'all like reading my weird brain vomit and that maybe i make some cool friends idk idk

anyhow, thanks for reading if you did, if you're here bc of the comic rest assured that i am DETERMINED to put out pages way faster now that i've also sworn off commissions for the most part. if you're here for the everything else, please be aware that hazbin hotel is going to suck me into the black void of fanart the second i get my grubby little hands on it so hope you enjoy that LOL

i keep trying to sign off on this post and it keeps not working organically so i'mma just leave it there. see y'all real soon and may 2024 be kinder to everyone who needs it!